tinge of hope

It’s so hard to live your life knowing the person you want to be with for the rest of your life
is in fact living with someone he wants to be with for the rest of his life.

How could Love allow to let this heart be broken?
Should you go on because you believe that true love waits,

hoping this someone might notice us,
wishing that this someone feels the same way too one of this days.

How long can we be hopeful?

How long can a believer have to wait?

Everyone is waiting for that somehow, someday…

But why does it have to be this way?

Why is it every time I fall in love I fail. Maybe that’s why its called “falling” in love.

Even if I’m not going to push my feelings, it grows itself, and you don’t know how to stop it, and of course you don’t want to stop it.

I don’t want to love someone just to forget him, I don’t wanna be a user, I don’t want to hurt people because i know exactly how it feels when love fails.

It hurts so much.. so much hurt to the extend that you could not even raise yourself up from bed.

too many tears waste for unreasonable reason, too many time waste for this stupid feelings just because you cannot accept the fact that the person you love cannot love you back.

you cannot accept the fact that he never had a single tinge of feeling for you anymore.

and that’s the most painful thing you’ll ever know.

tell me, what should i do?

Live in dreams, illusions, pretensions?

I’m tired that I can no longer shed even a single tear,
I’m tired that I could almost die.
I’m tired being the only person in the world that cannot be love.
I’m tired of wishing, hoping and waiting.
but I never get tired of loving you.

and by now I little by Little realize the essence of death
the only thing that takes place right after resentment

If only pain can be washed away by just soaking yourself in the ocean
then I would not need to worry of getting hurt over and over again

and I would wholeheartedly love you every now and then.

If only dreams and wishes come true
if and only if will come true,

then for sure I would have a perfect life to live on.

but hell no! the entire thing was a huge lie

outright frustration, utter confusion…

and when I’m gone. Please keep a picture of me

I will still be waiting for you.

maybe, over there, we are meant for each other.

and I’m still hoping and this tinge of Hope will be here forever in my heart

I love you so much… Farewell